First off, I don't want to let myself off the hook here.... But at the same time, I don't want to make a big deal out of it. So, I'll explain, maybe really for my own self.
The simple truth of the matter is, I was waaaaay too busy meeting with friends and family and organising all my old shit in Perth to produce a reel and write a blog. Collectively it can take up to 2 - 3 hours a day. There was 1 particular day, where I went to bed at 2am, woke up at 6am, hungover AF, and then drove 1.5 hours to a friend, stayed for a few hours, then drove 3 hours home to visit my family. I was cooked. Having said that, not gonna lie.... My undoing was also my bad habits. Fear of not wanting to record in front of people. Smoking. Self-conciousness. Then, by losing the momentum, the shame and guilt. The fear of judgement. Old laziness. But whatever, it's done.
Where to from here?
I was listening to a podcast with Chamath Palihapitiya, and he spoke about his weekly routine. 1 thing which REALLY resonated with me was his morning rituals. He mentioned he had a coffee machine where we would just press the button and that would be his ritual. But now he has a coffee machine where there's more work involved, but it is still a part of his ritual. What struck me was when he said:
this keeps me in rhythm
I just loved hearing that! It helped put me back on track on this journey.
I fell off, I made a mistake, but it's part of the process. I won't stop. I won't give up. I'll keep going and going.
It's so wonderful to have people around me who are supporting me on this journey, despite the negativity from people who are trying to hold me back to their resonance. I won't fall into that. If what they say affects me, I will instead have gratitude in my mind for them showing me that I have that negativity in my mind... I put people down in my mind constantly when I'm scrolling through social media. It's a toxic trait. So, I deserve to hear the same thing said to me. I'll do nothing but give love to the one who said it to me and be thankful.
And so, I will keep going, for another 100 days starting from now. I will continue solidly for 100 days, until I do complete 100 straight days.
I may have fallen off for a while, but I'm here to stay. I won't let "failure" come into this, cause that's not a word I want to acknowledge. There's just process. Nature's flow. Momentum. Rhythm.
Stay in rhythm. Keep building good habits. Keep moving forward. Never stop.
PS - I haven't stopped my Duolingo streak - 44 days and counting :D :D :D And I think that has been instrumental in at least maintaining the idea of consistency in my mind.